fickle

Fickle:    marked by lack of steadfastness, constancy, or stability : given to erratic changeableness   


I have been fickle in my life. Let me count the ways. I have been pondering these things for quite a while now and finally decided to write them down. I began writing this as DIVORCE but seeing the Websters definition, I am convinced that Fickle is the better word.

I lived in a house in San Diego from 73-89. 15 years is pretty stable.
After that I moved 23 times in 13 yrs. 
I had 15 places of employment in 8 years. Not because I was fired, but because I thought I was INVINCIBLE and that each job was a STEP UP ... always wanting something better.
I had 15 boyfriends in 9 years. Ages 13-21.  whew. nuff said. Not saved, not a good path to follow.
Since I have been saved, I have been a member of 8 churches. 8 churches in 18 years... same thing, quitting them to move on to "something better" .

I see this as Fickle. We have been here in Rathdrum now for almost 9 years. I feel stability and comfort staying in the same house. We have been at Heritage Baptist church for almost 9 years, I feel stability and strength and growth being in this church. My kids feel this too and are blooming because of it.

I look around me and see many other fickle people, unwilling to "stick and stay and make it pay" as our pastor says. Quitting on marriages, jobs, friendships, churches, etc.  Unwilling to have grace with the Family of God, forbearing one another and forgiving one another. 

I am glad we are here and I hope that by all of this, we become "stedfast, immoveable, always abounding in the work of the Lord" .( and not fickle)